Suki's training

*waits till Ami has left, than goes over to her* are you alright? *hands her a water bottle*

*i stand up and i look away from kirei* i dont need your pity

...it's not pity. My job is a doctor. I have to care whether I truly do or not. Do you think you can go on?

im fine...*sniffles and i start punching the dummy again*

Well, I hope so...*goes back to watching* It's hard to care much for human life anymore when your'e a doctor...after you do so many cases, nad you see so many people die, ti becomes insubstantial--one no longer fears death, but one does not respect life either. How do you see death?

*keeps punching harder and harder*

*shrugs* what od you plan on doing once you obtain this power?

anything i want...ami said once full power is obtained..that no one needs a life plan..it falls into the lamp..*right hooks it and keeps punching*

...interesting...most people actively seek their destinies...your're one of the ones who expect destiny to seek them...*goes back to watching*

*i wince in pain as my burnt hand bleeds worse*

...what od you believe in? A religion? A belief? A life style?

none..i belive in the truth...and i hear that from the people i respect the most...*keeps punching*

Truth...? Sometimes it is merely the lie that most people belive in...what is truth and Justice? True jsutice simply does not exist in the world.

truth is what everyone lives in everyday...no body lives in a lie..it only distroyes

I've been living in a Lie until my father died a few weeks ago.

and you were never the same am I right? *keeps punching until i hear my bones snapp and i frezze and grab my wrist*

never hte same...? No, not really...at times I can still think in the mindset of how it happened before...but it doesn't matter, I'm jsut saying that people cna live in Lies, nad yet survive...but yet when they discover truth, they are devastated, even destroyed.

good to hear...*i fall to my knees and a single tear runs down my face*

...ti's jsut that...people are very adaptive...they will get used to a lie if that is the environment they are raised. If it is slowly turned into a truth, they will survive it, if slightly less than before. But if it is sudden--when a lie is exposed or hte truth hidden...we shatter like delicate glass, and anyone who tries to put the shards together will merely cut his/her hand.

ya..understandable..*wraps my hand in bandages*

...but sorry, I'm distracting you from your training...

no its okay..kirei..can i ask you something?

yes...?

was what ami said true? that im worthless? that im so...pathetic even my own family didnt love me?

...I do not know. Perhaps you are worhtless...that you have less worth than a sellsword...but does that mean that it's over? Everyone has a meaning in his/her life...everyone has some worth. Ami believes you're worthless because she, too is trying to find her own reasons for existence...your way merely does not correspond is hers. but by no means leave her...she is a good teacher. The only person who is worhtless is someone who has stopped trying to find hte meaning of his existance--with no feelings, no enemies...merely a void. That is a mant to be pitied.